overwhelmed

But first some pictures...

A very sweet picture of Gwen and Grandma:)



Gwen loving on Roland. It is actually almost weird how much she loves him. I am not sure I have seen a toddler love on a baby like this. She insists on hugging him and giving him love.


and sweet picture of Gwen running wild after I cleaned. The girls always run back and forth after I clean :)





I don't know why I feel so overwhelmed right now. I have some downtime, thank you rainy nasty weather Washington. I so hate this place!!!
But thanks to the rainy weather I have time to think about how much all of this sucks. I am not going to go into all of it. I guess I feel like running away from it right now, which is why I am not liking that I have to think about these things. I am totally losing patience with many things though. I am sure once it gets sunny again and I can cram my days with things I will feel better, but it also makes me dread the coming of fall/winter. Makes me wonder if I will be able to handle it this year.

and the still more I promised two or more days ago...

Yes they are bad photos, try walking backwards down a hill, especially if you are as clumsy as I, and taking pictures of 4 people who are also moving...
Anyway, made me, yes made me, realize and admit that Gwen is actually more stubborn than Layla. At this age Layla still loved her wrap, really until she was 2 going on 3 she loved her wrap. You see what is over Jack's shoulder? Gwen's wrap. She insisted on walking. When we go to the store I have a hard time convincing her to stay wrapped up.
And here you can see that she really doesn't care what everyone else is doing, she does her own thing. She was walking, walking and then decided to turn around and go back:)
I love her, I really do. I worry though sometimes what she is going to be like when she gets older. I am very glad though that my girls all seem t have a sort of inner strength, hey I am trying to look on the bright side...

And one final note, I have to comment on how sweet and cuddly this girl is. At night when she wakes up to nurse she insists on giving me a hug first. I will switch sides and she will lift her littles arms around my neck and pull me down to her. She likes to cuddle. I know more than one of my friends has seen evidence of this. She doesn't just like to cuddle me:)

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Okay, you really can't tell, this is a booby ball. It is my friend's. You may not be able to tell but she is twiddling the nipple. I am thinking I may have to knit myself one for her to play with while she is nursing...



Natalie trying to pee Gwen. So cute, Gwen thought it was hilarious


And these pictures will be split up. We went to a park/garden/beach yesterday. I will write more about it in the next post. But cute Gwen


An you know, sometimes Natalie looks so old to me. Here she looks all lanky. She is getting so big! And is so Natalie. When I see this picture I end up sighing. She really isn't my little girl anymore. I think I need to stop saying that when she gets to 3/4 my height, which she is at now...She will always be my little girl, but you know? It is just one of those things. And yes, I am babbling because I really just don't know about this.

there is NO excuse

It has been what three weeks? We have been busy, and I keep forgetting my sd card. I remember the camera but I get to places an find I can't take pictures anyway. I will do a few posts though

Don't worry this was empty, kinda cute though, eh?


Isn't this sweet? This is Gwen's second mommy. She really goes over to her to take a nap at the park:) She nurses for a little while then crawls over and falls asleep. We may have to deal with some jealousy issues when she has her baby lol!


gwen kinda insists on going outside with Huck. She also thinks she can hold his leash. Well Jack came home one night and he took Gwen out with him. And then the girls go rushing out in their pjs to dance in the moonlight. Okay it was like 9 pm, the moon was out, but there was still plenty of sunlight out. I have to say that they are very good moonlight dancers:)


And I have to say we have an awesome oggie who is really great about a 1 yr old holding his leash