Love the holidays

First off, we are trying desperately to declutter our house. I am majorly nesting and feel the need to not have so much stuff to pick up. And neither one of my girls likes to pick up after themselves. Now, they could also care less about their toys, which is most likely the problem. So last night, the solstice, when we would have opened gifts if Jack hadn't been working, the girls decided once again that they would not put away their toys. I admit they did not get much this year. Partly because I asked them, would you like this? "No", This? "No". Okay, fine. Usually, I just put most of their toys on vacation, leave out a few. We are having playgroup today and we have no toys down here. They wouldn't help me even a little bit. I admit to being pregnant and very irriatable at the moment. But really, yesterday, this month has just been very bad. Jack will probably not be here for the birth. Okay, that is a lot of it. I lost a bracket on my braces yesterday at some point. The fact that I didn't realize it until I was trying to put on my rubber bands means that I most likely swallowed it:) My daughters are driving me insane. And I can't seem to keep my house clean. We don't have a name for the baby, we don't know the sex, we don't have a car seat. And I have no clue what labor or after is going to be like with a husband who is gone. And so I thought to start this, hoping that to journal would help me just a little. It is much faster for me to type now than to write and later on, i will be able to do so while nursing. This makes some sense. Of course it is also being published on the web...We will have to see how this goes, eh?
I have no clue when we are going to open up the girls gifts. Jack is susposed to have this weekend off. I am really sad, or we are going to have to go on a mad search for natural food coloring soon. I forgot all about our holiday tradition of making cinnomon rolls into a tree. I was going to buy some yesterday and thought, we have no food coloring, and we can't use food coloring. We also have yet to paint our tree. We may leave it up all winter and maybe we will start a new tradition of painting for each season, buds and flowers for spring, sun shiney day for summer and or course the fall colors for fall. I think that would be nice. I just wish we had gotten the tree up before solstice.
So today we have playgroup and i am hoping that the girls wake up in a much better mood today and that Jack may get home at a decent time and that no one freaks that we have no toys:) It is only 8 am and I already feel beaten for this day.